Feeling Down

I miss home very much !

I really want to move to mum's home

I miss mummy & my cats...

I love them ....but it is easy to do !!!

I know he is not the Mr. Right ...

To be honest , I know I love him...

How can I chase Mr Potato successfully??

I am very confuse of my live & my target...

What can I do?

I really want to be good ...but which not that easy as I think...

Everythings are out of my expectation.....

好耐好耐無打日記吧.....!!!

自己的時間..空間...都比以前的少了許多許多!!!

多了個人令我的生活規律改變不少!!

是健康o左許多的...少了玩樂...多了工作--->會on time  & w/out defult sick leave...

but heart has beedn changed by LKH!!

Feeling too tired here since stime...

really really want / hope to leave...

but where can i go to?

Four Seasons Hotel which is the 6 star & the most famous also provides well pay in hk...

where can i go?

certainly i learnt much here included pos & cons.??

LKH made me know that if ppl want to promote, they must envorage & make the unfair culture growth...working w/out 良心.. just verbally showing off w/out actual abilities..like pre cap & garoupa

o..it is the real socialogy?

I like the backgroung which i am using ...

 bcoz the girl likes mine ...

Keep walking very tired and no spirit in a dark place where are fully disappointed, upset, no haopes..

Alos really want to stop but never knoe hwen can she stop.....

TO my husband:

I 'm so sorry bcoz I Love U...which feeling is from my heart...

I 'm so sorry...I should use my heart to treat u ...

then made myself unhappy........

are u care of me ??

actually???

are u still angry w/ me bcoz I forgot to turn on the sound ring??

am I wrong...

u said u might leave at around 2300??

is any problems of my ears????

did u heard that i was unhappy of my job??

are u my husband...

are u listen to me>???

y everybody ignore me always ...

ami any problems??

Yes !!!!!11

 I am /..........

but ..Shit!!!!!!!

fact ,, i really dun want to say any excuite for mine......

but i rally try my best to correct it & change my mind to make all things smooothly...& happy w/ my LKH...for many many times.....

 it was hard...

but i still try time time after i lost.......

 i dun want to be that fucking image rigth now ...

btu no one can tell me what an i should do????or any suggestions...

 so tired ...

 really tired ..poorly no choice .

u are my husband...but do u know the above things of me??

sorry ...no...& never...even i told u much times b4...............

feeling hurt..

no one can borrow em ears...no one want to be my listener...

just leave me alone ...

hten enjoy their live...their tv programme...food...snacks..etc..

y u dun ask me any question???even u knew i am feeling down....

y ??

y??

no ans...

& no voice......

what do u treat me?

really a wife??

or others......shit??

who am I?

haha

Just a fucking boot shit Girl..

& living w/ all the worst..............until die.....

when??

maybe coming very soon....

& I hope that date can come asap...

 I dun want to wait anymore..

 so tired..but still alive........

 Oh¬ my God..

 sorry for all of ur bless...

 i dun want u to forgive me..

 I just want u to bless all ppl who I know .....plz......to replace all mistakes i made...& Can u let them to follow u & to be a Christain..

 sorry i cant do any things more..

i must nto stop my live myself...

but i hope u to do that asap ..

 i am too tired & feeling so hangry of mine.......

feeling lonely even sby is next to me.........

keep going...and then.....keep going.........that is............